My Heart had Been Misplaced

Funny how when we begin a relationship we can be blinded... Seeing what we want to see, ignoring what we are aware of. As humans we deeply desire companionship and for someone to love us. Adoration from another somehow equates meaning of self at times, at least in the moment.

Written with "hope" June/2011:

My Heart had Been Misplaced

Odd to reminisce on pain

When my heart has been recovered

No room to be contained

Simply ready to be uncovered

But my heart had been misplaced

Unready to be retrieved

Yet the fears you have erased

Unadmitably I believe

Hope; I’m tired of suppressing

Never felt it quite like this

Not effects I’m used to confessing

Submission, hope insists

Failed attempts to repress,

More than emotions inside me

Impossible to feel less

Being vulnerable feels so free

The words don’t come easy

But feeling is easy with you

Because you have released me

Through everything you do

Too intense for words to explain

And a smile does not suffice

Those words I can’t find contradict pain

And for that there is no price

Effortless to see into you

Because everything’s so bright

Like something I already knew,

There’s nothing that could be more right

I come to you slightly damaged

Though not your job, you restore

I am difficult to manage

 But your eyes say I’ll hurt no more

When you look at me you see me

Not simply looking through

I was holding out the key

Perhaps I already knew

I grant you access to my heart

I feel like it’s just been found

Take it all, please leave behind no part

And the walls are falling down

So there you are with your new key

And my tears know this is real

Nothing to fake; content to just be

Finally have consent to feel

New lenses over my eyes

A new perception to perceive

Accept truth, contradict lies

Life’s at the right place to believe

No metaphor to apply

To explain the way you love me

No appropriate reply

To express what it is I see

Have I not known you my whole life?

Incessant smile all along

Swear I don’t believe I thought twice

No doubt you are where I belong

I could write to you forever

Infinite pages, infinite theme

Nothing on earth could be better

Keep waiting to awake from my dream

Mary Potts          6/2011